This may not be the type of discussion that takes place on this site. If not, I do apologize, I am new here, but I am genuinely interested in people's reaction to this.
I've noticed that almost every math book I read begins with the words "Introduction to" or "Elementary." Are all of these authors seriously downplaying the amount of information one has to absorb to understand these books? Or am I an idiot? I'm in my first year of a PhD program, second semester. I did well the first semester, doing well in this one too. In fact I've always done well in math, in high school, through the BA and through the MA, straight A's. But after all this work it seems like I will never get to the point where I can read a book that's maybe "Intermediate." Let alone "Advanced." I almost feel like I must be faking it because there's so much I don't understand. And furthermore, it seems when you do get to that point, you're actually just reading papers that only maybe 35 other people in the world could read. Okay, I'm exaggerating.
Here's an example. One of the books I'm currently studying is John Lee's Riemannian Geometry: An Introduction to Curvature. It will often take me 3 full days to do the problems at the end of one of his chapters. Sometimes I get so stuck I feel like I'm wasting my time even working on it, but if I look for another reference, I am screwed, because this is the "introduction!"
I have a difficult time ascertaining exactly how much confusion your average mathematician experiences along the course of understanding something. Most of my peers have seen me as one of the more talented students. I expect they have no idea how many hours I spend weekly feeling like I'm banging my head against a wall.
I'd very much like to hear the opinion of a more experienced mathematician than myself. Is there ever a point where you feel so confused that you decide a topic must not be for you? To what extent do you think it's healthy to struggle with a concept? Does it get easier? When?
Thank you to whoever read this for your time.