I want to coin a notion of "strong provability", to be defined as:
$S$ is strongly provable in $T$ if and only if there is a Gödel code of its proof in $T$ that is strictly smaller than any Gödel code of a proof of its negation in $T$
Formally:
$ S \text { is strongly provable in } T \iff \\ \exists x: \operatorname {Proof}_T(x, \ulcorner S \urcorner ) \land \forall y (\operatorname {Proof}_T (y, \operatorname {neg}(\ulcorner S \urcorner)) \implies x < y ) $
Now let $T \vdash S$ be the usual metatheoretic statement of $S$ being syntactically proved from $T$
Then is it provable that:
$(T\vdash S) \iff S \text { is strongly provable in } T$
The forward direction is clear, but the opposite is what irks me? Can we have a sentence whose smallest code of its proof (not the metatheoretic) is a non-standard natural, and every proof of its negations is strictly lager than it? I mean in this case it'll be indeterminate syntactically speaking, and the statements would be false, yet is this possible, can we have a theory that spells that and be consistent?