I am not sure whether this is the right place to post this question.
I am at the end of my seventh year. I won't have funding neither from my department nor from my advisor next year and I do not have a thesis. I can enroll as a student if I can support myself, which will be possible but not easy for me.
My advisor made it clear from day one that he won't be much help to me. He said: PhD is taken not given. I started studying seriously two years ago. I could not much talk to him about what I learnt. Our conversation ended in a minute or two, if I asked immature questions. He didn't even suggest a problem. He said good students find their own problem.
I went astray at times. I spent more than necessary stuck on problems. I felt like Buridan's ass: I could not decide between learning new material or sticking to the same because of my limited time. I talked to his last student and a friend of mine, over the phone for six months. He is playing the role of my advisor now. I feel good about this.
If I do not earn a PhD my life will be much different. But at the same time, I am not sure how much more time I will need to get a result and get "done". Two years ago I thought I will have a result in six months. This was over-optimistic. Same thing happened a year ago. I am not sure whether continuing is overoptimistic at this point. Beside the fact that I feel lonely, and stressed, and worn...